deus does not exist but if he does i always notice him...

This weekend-
friday- a nice visit from my christopher. i was hanging with matt and jeff and my friend red wine when chris called me at 1.30am to ask if he could come over. of course! having a single is great for recieving 4am visitors.we snuggled and slept and he kept my bed warm while i went to rehearsal for which i rewarded myself a piece of pecan pie. finally gave him his prize for beating me in mini golf over the summer (i think it was by like one or two points, too). we went to target and i now own these fantastics skull socks with skullhead pom poms. we declared that we should decorate our house with skeletons all the time- halloween decorations for christmas. this is halloween, this is halloween
mmmm, my room smells of lemons.

other than that, in general things are complicated. i am busy yet lazy, though those two characteristics don't fit too well in the same equation. i am also highly confused and am having a crisis of conscience also am realizing i have to make decisions now about my future and this scares the shit out of me.so basically everything has twisted itself in my brain and become completly foreign.but i figured i still have a little bit of time before i decide where i am going to grad school, where i want to live,and what i want to do for a career. it just means i have to give it my consideration every day

in other i found i really like hot coco and coffee.
listening to:The Sugarcubes