hmm. i have been doing a lot of self re evaluation and i have decided that i allowed myself to swallow up too much negativity and lose some of my kala-essence, for sexample my vivacioussness and my effervescence. i stumble about the world like a snickering zombie. that aint cool. i don't want to end up like Mrs. Twit-
"if a person has ugly thoughts, it begins to show on the face. And when that person has ugly thoughts every day, every week, every year, the face gets uglier and uglier until it gets so ugly you can hardly bear to look at it"
although i believe i may keep the fake plastic blog though, for pure comedic efect.
so as i was saying, i was rubbing the thought of not being so judgemental between my sweaty little fingers when i read my horoscope in the village voice---
CAPRICORN (Dec. 22-Jan. 19): In my mind, there are no ambiguities about your immediate future. Here are the three precise formulas that sum up all you need to know for now. (1) If you clean out the stultifying chaos in your closet, your garage, or your mind, you will set in motion events that will ultimately bring you in contact with fertile, delightful chaos. (2) As soon as you dispense with once useful stuff you don't need any more, you will be delivered from a supposedly "necessary" evil. (3) If you cut down on your use of careless language and tame your reflex to judge people harshly, you will be given the key to a treasure you didn't even know existed.
that is the only reinforcement i need to turn the glass the other way.
ps- this is how i look at the full galss/empty glass shit-
if one were to pour the liquid into the glass- it is half full
if one were to drink the liquid from the glass- it is half empty

i think i got a little too thirsty and met the drought of pessimism face to face.
now i will go outside and hold up to the heavens with my open glass and wait for little bunnies and blue rain clouds and novelty store-worthy material (i was gonna say shit, but hey, im trying to change for the better here) to parade its way into it.
HUGGGGGGGGGSS.
ok, i realize that was really sarcastic. man, this is hard.
nice thoughts